Well, the other day I was reminded in yet another BIG, another eye-opening way. One that made me gulp and tear up several times...
I was at work teaching and all of a sudden I was struck with a horrible stomach ache. It was one of those aches where you just want to ball up and not be social or maternal! I toughed it out and made it home to the couch. I was at least home. Ahhh! In the comfort of my husband and kids! Logan was busy with her pretend play, Leah was happy playing the computer, Isaac was eating (big surprise!!!), but Ella was staring daggers at me. Daggers of fear! Her big beautiful brown eyes looked at me, then looked away...her eyes darted away from mine. I didn't give it much thought until I naturally began reassuring her, "Mama's okay...her tummy is ouchie. She'll be okay."
LIGHT BULB MOMENT
Ella was remembering losing a biological relative due to extreme illness. I believe she was fearful of repeating this history.
Well, my tummy ache wasn't worth her heart ache so up I got and held her to comfort her and assure her that mommy was and will be okay. My heart ached for hers. My tears welled for her painful memories. I lost all thought of the here and now! I went into "Ella-memory-mode".
This is just another example of something that could never have been predicted...but I dealt with fairly well (if I do say so myself!!!). Ella slept fine that night and woke with a happy and refreshed spirit! That's what this is all about!
...and my tummy ache only lasted another 2 days! Better now :)
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Isn't it amazing how much you continue to learn about them and what they have experienced? It just seems unbelievable at times that they can adjust as well as they do after all they've been through.
Hope your adjustments are continuing to go well and life is feeling "normal" once again. As normal as it can feel with four children age five and under!
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